Thursday, April 23, 2009


Why is it that we think that we know what love is?
Does anyone?

Why is it that as teenagers we insist on falling in love and staying with that person until we grow old and live a full life only dying once we've done so and being happy in the face of death?

Loss is big,
Loss is scary,
Why do we insist on having it in our lives?

I'm going to leave you with one final though for today....
You'll have to think about it and for as long as you're thinking about it, it is possible you will never find the answer...
So answer my question if you can....


Monday, April 20, 2009


It lurks, it hides, and it waits in the shadows.
It follows us wherever we go, we run, but we can not hide,
Death will always find us.

The ines we grow to know and love are snatched from our hands and taken for what feels like forever, where do we go?
What do we do?

How is it fair that we do not get the chance to say good-bye?
How can this be "Gods will"?
If there was a God wouldn't he/she want everyone to be happy?
For no one to be in pain?
For there to be peace and harmony in the world?

Why must we live like this?
Why does it all have to hurt so much?

We will miss you for what will feel like forever and may the angels take care of you.
May there be no more pain.
I will not say good-bye but see you later,
I will see you again someday, when I do not know,
Nor do I know how,
But we will meet again and stay forever....

Sunday, April 19, 2009


Why is it as soon as we get up to try again someone is always there to bring us down?
Why is it that as soon as we are happy we make ourselves sad?
Why is it when someone get close we push them away?
Why is it that we want our friends to be happy with someone when they finally are we hate the person they are with?....

In my case hate might be a too strong a word....ummmmm... how about dislike....?
My beautiful friend who we are going to refer to as... Billie... is the best friend anyone could ask for she is:
  • Beautiful
  • Smart
  • Funny

Well she's just all round talented, but she is dating this real dead beat who is showing early signs of an abusive relationship, and he's already cheated on her TWICE!!!!

He doesn't deserve her and she desrves better....

I mean she's dating this guy and he's a heavy drinker, heavy drug user and when they had taken a break, he would call her and text her telling her about all of the floozies he had slept with. When my other friend... who we will call Kay... Kay and I tell Billie what we see she just gets annoyed with us and acts childish. I mean the ass she calls her boyfriend is already trying to stop her from having anything to do with us....

Who wants to be in a relationship like that????

Friday, April 10, 2009

How Im Seen

  1. Ugly
  2. Fat
  3. Repulsive
  4. Crude
  5. Midget
  6. Drama Queen
  7. Depressive/Depressed/Emo
  8. Annoying
  9. Bitch
  10. Mole

I could go on forever but then I would bore you. Sad how I can some up a persims first opinon of me on ten words.

I wish he would notice me and tell me it's alright, hold me and tell me it will be ok...

Why can't life be like a hollywood movie?

Good? Friday

I sit and I think,

It's the only thing that one can really do when there is nothing left....

Why is it that we set out to destroy the ones we love?
We set out to love the ones we want to destroy,
Why is it that we demolish any chance we have at a normal life?

As a teenager I have weird feelings towards friends, family and everyone else. But as a teenager I feel love, can this really happen? Do I even know what "love" is?

Everything is moving too fast around me.... Do I have any hopes to slow it down?


I'd Rather Be Hated For Who I Am Than Liked For Someone I'm Not...