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When one thing falls apart, everything else seems to follow.
One by one you begin to disappear, it disappears to the point where you are nothing but the outer shell.
The shell that everyone knows, it is all that remains.
The reason does not care, why would they?
They have caused the damage and want nothing of you, they gave you nothing and you gave them almost everything.
How can you put yourself back together, when all you know is how you fell apart?

My Life..

It's amazing how everything seems to turn to sh!t all within the space of a half hour.
Like when you get broken up with over msn. Oh yes, thats right. I got dumped over msn!
Because getting dumped isn't bad enough, HOW ABOUT WE MAKE IT WORSE BY NOT HAVING THE BALLS TO SAY IT TO A PERSONS FACE!!!! What runs through a persons head when they do this? It makes everything hurt twice as much...
If you had really cared you would have had the balls and decency to say what you had to say to my face.

I saw an elderly lady at my bus stop today.. and all I could think was
"that is exaclty what I want to be when I reach that age...."
She had such class, was dressed well and held herself with such poise. She was a REAL lady.

I often wonder if it's possible that I was born into the wrong era. I dream of living in a time where class was everything. People always looked their best and everyone was kind.
But times change and so do we... Things like this dont seem to matter anymore......

Make Up Your Mind

You either want me or you don't,
I want you to love me but you won't.
Do you see?
What you are doing to me.
All the pain you cause,
But you still expect my applause.

Well I'm done,
I hope you had all your fun.
I've had enough of wasting my time,
So now you need to Make Up Your Mind.
You either want me or you don't...



When some one is an influence on your life it's hard to cut them out. No matter how much pain I am caused, I just can't seem to let them go. I wonder if I should feel ashamed, stupid or if I should actually hate myself for it all. I've tried and they don't put in any effort at all. Now I am putting my foot down and all this is going to stop, now all that needs to be done is for you to Make Up Your Mind.

How this Grace thing works...?

Ok, so my last post or two have been related to religion and beliefs but that is what has been on my mind.

How does one believe?
How does one know what to believe?
How does one keep believing?
How does one know what to believe?

I have alot of respect for someone who has faith and/or a religion. To be able to believe that there is someone who watches over us and takes care of us must be an amazing feeling.
A feeling that I wish I knew, but my head always leans to the "yes, but what about..."

Ending with two questions today...
Do you believe?
What do you believe?

The Man Upstairs

What makes us believe?
How do we know that this person even exists?
How do people keep their faith?
What helps people to keep their faith?

People believe in all sorts of different things. Some in higher places others that were simply less evolved than us.

Do I believe?
Do you believe?
All different things surround us. Life, death and everything before, after and in-between.
But did anyone else have a hand in all of this world?

Back To The Future...

Why is it that people are so obsessed with their futures?
People get so caught up in what they want in the future that they dont pay any attention to what they want now.

All I want in my future is fun and travel.

It also got me thinking why it is something that consumes people and why, if it doesn't work out people push and force it onto their children. You're children aren't you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

People think that their entire life revolves around their future. Why can't people just look at their lives now and accept them for what they are now and enjoy themselves while they still can. By all means aspire to do something with your life and dream about what you could be but don't let it consume you, don't let it take away your life so that you can get something that may not be worth it in the end.

Appreciate what you have and don't take anything for granted. Live your life to the full and go out in style!!!!!